Remnants of My Happy Heart

his tender hands which touch me tingles slip down my spine his kisses upon my bare skin goose bumps forming his brown eyes which look through me into the depths of my soul his hair which i stroke brings feelings which i have forgot his love which fills me brings me joy in this dark place.

my life is filled with worries and care for someone i hold dearly his lips upon mine, soft and inviting remind me i am loved but why why do i deserve this undying affection or his physical manifestation of love i don't deserve it he's perfect, beyond my reach yet he loves me i feel it deep down in my bones its beat rapid, flutters just under my chest heart it breathes with emotion confused and in love i love him so much i burns deep down in the put of my stomach but i don't deserve him.

my empty words filled with hate anxious and depressed keeps me waiting heart thumping mind racing where's the time gone knowledge of his care his love and kind heart yet i doubt his undying affection he loves me i know it but i still can't believe it.

always anxious heart flitting beneath my skin head pounding violently it keeps me sane this undeniable worry that keeps me wake through the night the stomach wrenching feeling that makes me know it's real the nausea of worry i'm alive.

my tears acid from my eyes burns from my skin as i cry my heart a steed in a race fast as a drum beats inside my brain a roundabout on a playground spinning out of control thoughts unheard depression.